Tuesday, July 30, 2013

29-30 weeks and lots of different emotions

29 weeks

30 weeks

I feel so big! It's hard to imagine 8-9 more weeks of growing. I'm up to 155 lbs and I'm pretty much gaining the weight everywhere. I am so lucky that I don't have to work right now...being able to sit and put my feet up as often as I'd like has been so nice (and we've just gone through a terrible heat wave.) My feet and hands feel tingly sometimes (and when I wake up my fingers have full-blown carpal tunnel!) I'm feeling pretty tired. For about a week I was waking up at 2 or 3 am and I'd end up on the couch with the TV on. I almost don't mind waking up in the middle of the night- it's nice and quiet, lol! But luckily I've been able to get back to sleep and wake around 6...in time to enjoy some coffee before Audrey comes in to snuggle :) When she would wake before 7, I used to send her right back to her room. But now I look forward to having that quiet, one-on-one time with her.

I'm starting to get nervous about everything from how/when the baby will arrive to how hectic life will be with 3. Will this baby arrive early? On its own? What will I do if Chris is at work? How will I manage 3 kids all by myself all day long? Two kids has been very manageable- am I in over my head with 3?? I feel sort of sad for the girls- their life is going to be so different. I have a lot of anxiety starting to build :(

I'm trying to wrap my head around the inevitable...when the baby arrives there will be a lot less sleep. The girls will watch more TV (I feel SO TERRIBLE about this one!) I won't have the energy/will power to pick up the house twice a day (my girls can make a mess!) My patience will be tested constantly. I'll be hormonal. I'll expect Christopher to be a mind reader (and then get snippy when he, in fact, does not read my crazy mind.) Ugh- I'm a mess!

All I can do is prepare this house for the baby and hope for the best. I can spend lots of time with my girls now and enjoy being pregnant. I know it will all work out in the end and we'll get there by taking it one day at a time.

In better news, the nursery is pretty much done!! Once the huge desk was out of the way, I went full steam ahead! It is small- but absolutely perfect for a nursery. I'm starting to love that cozy little space! Audrey likes to help...she says she wants to help with the "accessories." Where did she even learn that word?!

Originally I had wanted to repaint the top walls gray and then add pink or blue when the baby arrived. But Chris loves the green color, and I like the idea of having a "finished" nursery. The color goes with the original bedding we had with Audrey and Abigail, plus the curtains. I really love how it's turning out. Hard to imagine that just a few weeks ago it was the place where I blogged, worked on lesson plans, and finished report cards...and where I'd store boxes for months, lol.

The next few weeks are going to fly by! I'd like to get out as much as possible as long as the weather isn't too hot. Today we went to the mall and Rita's. Tomorrow we're going to try the movies and then head over to Grandma's pool :) Next week Abigail starts swim lessons, Audrey has dance camp, and I start seeing the doctor twice a week. My BIL & SIL will be having their baby very soon!! I'm totally loving Summer!