Last night was roughest by far. Nothing I did could console her. She seemed so miserable and I felt like a failure. She cried, I cried...we were a big hot mess! Eventually I put her in the swing and she slept for about an hour. She woke up to eat around 6am and then slept on me until 9...thank goodness! It felt so good to have her on me finally sleeping peacefully.
Hormones are a bitch. I've never been a big crier, but in the past 3 1/2 weeks I've cried almost every day. Sometimes it's frustration, sadness, or over something so silly. I know it's the baby blues and that it all gets better. I also know that I'm doing the very best I can and it's not my fault. It helps to hear everyone else's stories. I can't wait to think back on these first few weeks and be proud that we survived them!
I did get out of the house for a couple hours Saturday morning. I dropped off Zoe at Pet Smart, grabbed some Starbucks, got a haircut and went to Target. It was pretty nice to be out and about by myself! AND I got my rings to fit again! I haven't worn them since October...they were definitely a little snug, but I got them on and off :) I have about 8 lbs to go before I'm back at my pre-pregnancy weight. I can't wait to start walking and exercising.
