Sunday, January 18, 2009

And I Guess That's Why They Call It The Blues...

Last night was roughest by far. Nothing I did could console her. She seemed so miserable and I felt like a failure. She cried, I cried...we were a big hot mess! Eventually I put her in the swing and she slept for about an hour. She woke up to eat around 6am and then slept on me until 9...thank goodness! It felt so good to have her on me finally sleeping peacefully.

Hormones are a bitch. I've never been a big crier, but in the past 3 1/2 weeks I've cried almost every day. Sometimes it's frustration, sadness, or over something so silly. I know it's the baby blues and that it all gets better. I also know that I'm doing the very best I can and it's not my fault. It helps to hear everyone else's stories. I can't wait to think back on these first few weeks and be proud that we survived them!

I did get out of the house for a couple hours Saturday morning. I dropped off Zoe at Pet Smart, grabbed some Starbucks, got a haircut and went to Target. It was pretty nice to be out and about by myself! AND I got my rings to fit again! I haven't worn them since October...they were definitely a little snug, but I got them on and off :) I have about 8 lbs to go before I'm back at my pre-pregnancy weight. I can't wait to start walking and exercising.


Molly said...

Audrey is beautiful. Congratulations and best wishes with the Baby Blues.

caroline079 said...

Sometimes you just cry together and that's all that you can do : ) I remember crying with Jacob. There was a period when he was 2 or 3 months old where he would cry every afternoon for and hour or so. The only think that would console him was walking around the house with him in the sling. Just walking in circles...a good way to tackle those last eight pounds! : )

Leanne said...

Hi there! I have been following your blog for awhile now and I really enjoy it! Your Audrey is so precious.

I just wanted to let you know you are not alone. I could have written your post word for word when my Lucas was a few weeks old. In fact, I still feel what you are feeling. It does get better and you have a great support system in your husband!

Hang in there and know that you are doing the absolute best for Audrey. She loves her mommy more than anything, but she is still trying to get her bearings in this brand new world.

Take care of yourself and Audrey will be just fine!